Molly

Sunday, March 28, 2010

My Inner Hippie


So I still shower and don't dress in crazy clothes, nor do I smoke anything, but I have become more aware of my surroundings. Recycling is a small thing that makes a big difference in the long run. The City of Calgary has blue bins for recycling available for all homes in calgary. It is a great feeling to know that I am giving back to the world that has been so good to me. We are also getting our preparations ready to start a compost bin. The one down fall of living so far north is that the growing season isn't long enough to grow much. I love giving back and like having a great city and millions of other people standing with me in taking care of our mother earth.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Haiti

On January 12, 2010 our world was effected by the 5th deadliest 7.0 magnitude earthquake that effected Haiti. What a tragic event this was. The world was celebrating a new year, a new decade, and preparing for the 2010 Vancouver Winter Olympics. This 35 second shift in the earths plates left 215,000 to 230,000 people dead, 300,000 injured, and 1 million people homeless. I have to say that I am grateful to be a member of the Chruch of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints who has such a great humanitarian system that can jump in and help, not to mention the many other charitable organizations that also came to the rescue.
It was a very humbling experience to talk to a man I knew through my job at the time as he said that this life and all that happens in it is in Gods hands. I have believed this my whole life. The reason I talk about Fritz is that he has immediate family in Haiti and I believe lost loved ones and friends. It was so inspiring.
Ok, so you may ask yourself why I am writing about this particular topic almost 3 months later. I was in the car with Shane and we were flipping through the radio stations (a frequent occurance when we are in the car together) and he stopped me and asked if I had heard this song.
I am so proud to live in such a great country. My experience in Canada has been something that words can't describe. Tears come to my eyes as I stand and sing "Oh Canada". I have learned so much and had my eyes opened to a completely different way of living and way of looking at life. It has been such an inspiring journey.
I am grateful that Canada is still concerned about Haiti when for most of us findthis catastrophic event is something that no longer crosses our mind. We tend to only focus on what is on the news and once it is no longer aired we forget about it. Let us all remember what we can do to help the current place that we live and give what we can to those who aren't as fortunate as us.
PRAY FOR HAITI!!!!!!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Found

As I have reflected over the last few months I look at who and where I am today and am grateful for all that I have. When we were evicted in December I thought it was the end of the world. I thought everyone was against me, not to mention the drama at work didn't help. I though how could someone be so heartless to evict two young people right before Christmas for the smell that came from my Scentsy warmer. As the weeks went on work continued to get worse and worse. The drama and cattiness was unbearable and so I left my job. I often feel it may have something to do with winter being so dark and cold that causes me to be miserable, or it's just that spring is coming and the days are getting longer, and I am realizing that it wasn't the dark of winter that makes me feel so down. Regardless I found myself jobless sitting at home all day every day. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to take it. In the process of all of this, I went to my doctor and had my anti-depressant medication switched. I started seeing a Manic Behavior Therapist (someone who works with you on your thoughts and how they effect your actions). After a hectic, terrible weekend home in Utah, I realized I was really out of the loop.

I am amazed at the woman I am today. It hasn't even been a month since I quit my job and I feel better than I have felt in a long long time. I have lost 7 pounds in 9 days, I go to the gym 3-4 times a week and have had the discipline to stick to a diet. The therapist Michael McLean (yes, Shane always asks me if he sings to me... NOT the same guy) has opened my eyes to how much denial I was living in. I have been able to pull through that and find the true Mindy under it all. Sure there are still things that are stressful, money, job searching, my calling, figuring everything out for school in the fall, etc... but I am able to pull through it all and not have a nervous breakdown like the Mindy I was before.

I feel like I have truly found myself. I am grateful for how gracious and kind the Lord is. I feel like I am going to be able to touch others lives for good. My goal is to inspire every person that I can in any way that I can. I am able to see my strengths admidst all of the things that are going wrong. I am grateful for talents and this new outlook at life.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Time to Knock!

So... I knocked Canada back in July of 2009 (for your reading enjoyment please go back and check it out). It is now time for me to knock the United States!!! Ladies and Gentleman of the United States of America...
PULL YOUR HEADS OUT AND SUPPORT YOUR COUNTRY WHO IS BEHIND THE TIMES AS FAR AS MEASUREMENTS OF DISTANCE AND HEALTH CARE SUPPORT GOES!!!!!!!!
Let me explain...
As all of you know I am a citizen of the United States of America. I currently reside in Canada and could not be more proud to say such a thing. When I was taking an economics class at Utah State University in 2008 I was thrilled to be getting out of the mess the US was and still is in. I am ashamed that Obama got the Nobel prize for a "plan" that he should be implying only because IT IS HIS JOB! He should not have received such an award for something like this, none the less, he knows what he is doing by implementing this health care plan. Let me repeat myself... He knows what he is doing by implementing this health care plan.
Before I moved to Canada I was pretty scared of Socialized medicine. As an American, I was UNEDUCATED on how the rest of the world ran. I was cocky, errogant, and thought that since I was born in the USA I had every right to my opinions. Thoughs like "what are they thinking having socialized medicine? How do the people get the care they need? OR Why do they use metrics, miles and inches just make sense." Let me just say, as soon as I landed in Canada, my dignity was stripped and I became educated on how things work.
I have been very well taken care of as far as my health is concerned. Canada uses the "preventative" approach. I had lived here for a year and a half and hadn't had my "female exam" done. I received a letter in the mail suggesting that I have a pap to make sure I wasn't at risk for cervical cancer. Who else has received one of those??? That's what I thought. Women up here are induced for the sake of convenience with their doctors, nor do they stay in the hospital for any long amount of time after they have their child. If there is a risk in that womans pregnancy, the doctors take the measures that they need and after the woman is 42 weeks pregnant, then she will be induced. Ultrasounds are not a weekly appointment thing. You have 2 MAYBE 3 ultrasounds done your ENTIRE pregnancy. Yep, and women are delivering health babies daily.
I hear... "Doctors in Canada aren't as specialized or a qualified." Pardon my french for a moment, that is a bunch of BULL S***!!!!!!!!!!! That's right! A man in our last ward is going to school to be a doctor (I don't remember what specialty). I asked him if he will move to the states once he is done school for the fact of making more money, and this was his response. "No way, I could never be the doctor that had to put a patient in the a situation like your insurance is up, which arm do you like better because one will need to be amputated. That's right, some doctors don't just do it for the money. They do it because they want to help people be healthy and for the love of what they do.
As far as the complaint "my taxes are going to pay for lazy peoples medical bills" forget about it. In the long run, you will go to the doctor more then they will!!!!!! Also, it's not like it is going to be money wasted, nor will you miss it... it's something that you will never have and chances are you will get the great majority back in your tax returns. Think of it as tithing, it was never yours in the first place.
There you go, my take on socialized medicine. For those of you who think your life will come to an end once this comes into effect, get over yourself.
Have a nice day :)

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Cousins

This weekend we had Lily's "cousins" over. Shadow (who I call lucifer) and Kira. Lily and Kira had a lot of fun together. The first night was a bit rough. Meet the Crew.
Shadow
Kira

Lily



Day 1: Kira has a cage that we were told if we put her in and covered it with a sheet she would be fine. 4:30 rolled around and from then until Shane let her out all we heard was clanging and barking. Then of coarse it was scratching and crying at our door. Out went the laundry basket in front of the bedroom door to stop that. Lily loved to pester her wile she was in her cage. Shadow hid under our bed until we pushed him out with a broom. It was a rough night.

Day 2: Shadow hid in the back room and each time I went back there he would hiss at me. That was NOT ok with me. I squirted him with a water bottle each time he hissed. He was ticked and ran to hide under our bed. Lily and Kira took naps throughout the whole day. I thought we were in for another rough night. Chloe brought Phoebe over to help get an idea on how to answer a boy back who asked her to grad. Shadow hissed each time we pulled up the bed skirt. He is evil! We got him out from under the bed again (thanks broom). He freaked out and was growling and hissing at everyone. He went back to the back room to his hiding place.

Day 3: I slept in for a long time and woke up to find Shadow in the kitchen by Shane. He hates me and as soon as I came out he was back to his hiding. He was a bit kinder to me after spending the night in the bathroom and having some food. No more hissing. It was nice.

Day 4: We were woke up by our door bell going off... The animals "parents" were here to pick them up. Shane and I scrambled for clothes (honestly, who is endowed that sleeps in more than your garmets?) Off they went. We got a whole vacuum full of cat hair and we are back to norma. AAAAAHHHH, sigh, the peace.

Needless to say, 1 cat is enough for us :) We love our spoiled Lily.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Hungry...


So yes I am on a diet, but havn't been to hungry. The hunger I am talking about is.... for a baby. I haven't had the longing to have a child of my own since I have been married. Of coarse I plan to be a mother and look forward to that day, just have never really wanted it until.... yesterday. I was on my way to the gym and saw my friend Amy driving down the high way in the lane next to mine. Ironically, she lives right by the gym I go to and instead of getting a good workout yesterday, I hung out with her. She has a little boy Jack who is 6 months old and a bucket full of sunshine (thanks Natasha for the words ;)). I watched the movie of him laugh and laugh as he found the door stop spring and kept flicking it and bursting into laughter. I went on the Belly Mama's page to show Amy some of the cute links for nursing covers, maternity clothes, etc. I am grateful for the things I have learned off this website already and am not expecting and may not be anytime soon. After holding Jack, reading, looking, I feel like I am ready to brave the 9 month journey of pregnancy and welcome a beautiful baby into this world. It is all up to the Lord as to whether or not it is right, but I will have some dang cute clothes when the time is right to have a child in me. Of coarse there is the fact that I need to finish school and all... that is the plan for this fall... like I said, I'm just hungry, there's not a bun in the oven.

Tired

I am fotunate not to have as hard of a time with daylight savings as some do since I am currently unemployed. Speaking of which, I had a job interview at a busy flower shop this morning.

I don't feel that I nailed it, but we'll see what the owner who interviewed me thinks. It is like a dream the job she described. Be with people, work with flowers, no weekends, aaaahhhhhh!!! As the interview came to a close she mentioned that she had a few more interviews this week and that she would be be letting the lucky person know at the end of the week. I left a nervous wreck! I really hope that I get it. Due to how I was feeling, I came home, grabbed my stuff, and was off to the gym. It's amazing what some exercise can do for you. 14 miles and 40 minutes later I was finished with my workout.
I came home and ate lunch. I started doing weight watchers yesterday and so far, so good. My goal is to lose 25 pounds before my brother in laws wedding in June. I will be keeping everyone updated on how I am doing :) Today was tuna salad on toast. It was pretty tasty. The thing about weight watchers that is so nice is that you can eat whatever you want. Every food has a point value and you are allowed a certain number of points a day. It works out pretty well. All about the self discipline.
After lunch I looked outside at all the dead leaves in our yard. The woman living here before us moved from here to the menal hospital so you can imagine that NO yard work was done. There is also a jr. high right across the street from our house. I got a grocery bag of garbage and about 20 piles of old dead leaves all raked up this afternoon. I am feeling exhausted and like I wont be able to move in the morning. After dinner I'm going to have Shane help me pick up all the leaves .

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Little Did I Know...

Little did I know that when I booked my flight to come to Utah a month ago...

  1. I wouldn't have a job
  2. A potential employer would call me the night before and I would miss their call having to post pone finding anything out until Monday
  3. I would be completely drained after flying
  4. I would have to go through security at the airport twice (once in Calgary, once in Phoenix)
  5. I would be stranded at my parents house without a car
  6. I would feel super down and not want to do anything, but want to do everything at the same time
  7. It would be freezing cold
  8. I would feel really fat
  9. I would consider calling all my friends I have made plans with and cancel
  10. I would be craving healthy food, but too lazy to make any
  11. I would want to jump right back on an airplane and be with my husband
  12. Most of all, I was hoping that reality was different than it really is eg... I wouldn't have to drive an hour to see the one person I really want to, my family would care more about me being here than their own lives, My friends would do whatever they had to so they could see me, it would be really warm and I could have a fabulous time in the sunshine.

I HATE NOT HAVING A CAR!!!!! and to top it all off, my mom canceled the rental car that I booked for this weekend.  I guess I am no longer an adult and still can't do whatever I want!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Sleeping To Dream About.... Death?!

So the last few days each time I sleep I wake up in such a bad mood.  You would think that since sleep is something that I love that it would be enjoyable and I would fight the urge to get up like I always have.  Not anymore!!!!  I have been having the most bizarre dreams, scary in fact.  I have been dreaming about death... not mine, or anyone that I love, but crazy ways that people are being killed, unrealistic ways, and the blood and ugh!!!!!  So, I look forward now to being awake and the thought of sleep that was once loved is now despised.  As I have been frantic to know where the onset of these dreams has come from, I went to the internet.  Sure enough, the new anti-anxiety medicine that I am on causes abnormal dreams!  Oh, why does something that I need so much cause me so much pain!!!!!  I am definitely going to call my doctor this week.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Money Matters

So I am looking over my itinerary for my trip to Utah is coming week to find...  YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR ALL CHECKED BAGGAGE NOW!!!!!  Excuse me?!  Yeah, I'm not quite sure what I am going to do.  I am super super excited to be headed down to Utah... I am thinking that I may just cram everything into a carry on and save the $50 for my clothes to fly under the plane.  I look forward to seeing friends, going to the temple, and spending time with my family.... oh why is money the necessary evil???


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Goodbye Concorde!!!!!!!!

So today was my last day at the Concorde Group. This picture would describe how work went on a daily basis.

I am very glad to be out of there and on to healing myself :) I found it ironic that the girl who is the problem in the office said to me as I was going out the door "if you find anything really good, let me know." My though... "Yeah right!!!!!You're the reason that I am leaving!!!!"
I find that the Lord is very kind when we do what is right. I was offered 2 good jobs this weekend. One from a woman I met at the flower market and the other from our stake president who is an orthopedic surgeon.  I'm thinking I may just get something for fun since I am going back to school in the fall.  Needless to say before I do anything, I am going to take some serious ME time for the first time in my life.  The forecast... HAPPINESS!!!!